After 2 years. 

One more week to end of school, I really can't wait. Shall have a good nice break this holiday, DUBAI here I come! (: 

Speaking about school, what do I go to school for exactly? To learn how to integrate numbers after numbers, to learn about how our cells divide, or to learn about how earth wire prevents us from getting electrocuted? I used to think that I pretty much know what I want in life, but it doesn't seem like the case now. Everything's becoming a question mark, and the feeling of uncertainty sucks big time. 

Talking to Liangzhi on msn noww. I miss the J3ssss even though I just had dinner with Ben and Jieyu last weekend. Tim hurry bookout omggg ): 

Set me free from the past, cause it's taking a toll on me. 

PeeASS: I'm gonna beat you one day, just you wait. 

4 May 2009, till 4 May 2010. It's been a whole long year. As the Earth spins, as 365 days passes by, as winter ends and spring begins, our relationship did too.

I've forgotten how we used to be, and one day, I'm afraid I'll even forget how you look like. I kept saying that I'll forget about us, that I hate you, that you're a bastard, that it was a stupid mistake, but exactly how much of it is true? I don't even dare to think about it; just like how I can't face you cause I know my emotions will give in.

Amidst all these changes, one thing wouldn't. Memories, will always have a place in my heart.

Hush,hush.

All these while, I've been living in that bubble of mine. To think of it, the past seems like fantasy, like fairytale, like I've never been alive. Someone once told me, so long as you work hard enough, you'll achieve what you want. You know, that's bullshit. Life isn't fair, since when has it been fair?

I've really been putting lotsa effort into running, and this Nationals really did prove something- that effort doesn't equate to results. So as of now, I'm really sick of everything, like including people. I don't understand how someone older than me can be so childish HAHA, it's a total joke. And guess what, the pot calling the kettle black? Get a life dude. I guess you're not gonna heed my advice, cause you're simply too thick skinned, which is so damn disgusting. I don't give a heck even if you see this cause I want you to know that I do not like you, yes please.

I needa get really focused, and get my studies back onto track. There are lots to do, but it's okay I'm gonna take it slowly, one step at a time. Wow such positive attitude I'm amazed HAHA.

Stop daydreaming, cause good things aren't just gonna happen like that.

First of all, HAPPY BIRTHDAY GERALDD CHIAM!  If you're reading this, YES I KNOWW I ROCK! 

Life hasn't been great, school's killing me. Stress is mounting up, for some reason, even after Nationals is over. Training's resuming but guess what, I feel like quitting all of a sudden, there's no point for me to stay in that team anymore, I guess. Not like they give a shit anyway. Loads of stuff happened over these past few weeks, really loads. I'll update some other day. 

Late nights have already seem like my daily routine, my body clock's screwed like way bad. It's 2.30 now and I think I should head off to bed, yes. Bye earthlings, till the next time,

Jo.